Living my life blindly



A friend of mine recently told me that it's q worrying to see me, a 20 year old still so lost about life. It got me thinking about the things I really want in my life 10/20 years from now. What do I want? I seriously don't know. Probably financial freedom, health, love from friends and family..? I actually thought I knew what I wanted, thought that I thought about my own future.. But the truth is, like many others, the future has always only bordered on vague passing thoughts. hmm... Definitely should start thinking about the far future too..



haha.. Have been very tired everyday from work.. A few days ago, before the end of the Neil Road Project, we had to fill up the pits we dug while in search of priceless artefacts.. All the shovelling, moving of heavy rocks.. Has it made my butterflies/flutter-bys lesser? I certainly hope so hee..



One more thing.. Do I always look moody and tired? For those who thinks I am damn sian and have absolutely no interest in what's going on aroung me, I just want to say that that was unintentional. I have no idea why is my body clock topsy turvy ALL THE TIME! Yesterday was a good example. I was feeling sleepy the whole day, heavy eyelids and all.. At around 6 plus, we had to move the equipments back to the Serapong stores. The sun was just about setting at that time when we were ready to leave Serapong. The strange thing was, i felt very energetic and awake when we were leaving (the sun was 3/4 back to bed, basically, there weren't much sunlight left. What was more peculiar was that if I had felt lethargic during the day, I should also feel the same way at night because I haven't had a good and sound sleep for a really long time. I use to be those blessed with sound sleep almost every night. But now I get to dream most nights, a rare phenomenon. I really wonder if I was supposed to be an owl in my current life or human being.



That's all for now.. I'm going to catch up on my sleep.. wish me NO dreamz!