Why do I have to take international econ this semester?!

Itchy itchy. Haven't been doing any washing/cooking for a long time, and since returning from Germany, only cooked twice and baked once. Mere thought of holding anything with my whole hand/ anything that would put my palms in direct contact even dry objects irks me. Even the insides of my ears itch like crazy sometimes. I don't dare scratch my face lest I leave scars. I hate it when my lips itch. Cetrizine, my anti itch medicine, that is non sedating, is my only best friend now. I can't sleep without it.

The 'skin' turns me off. Looks rotten yea..


A: I'm really sorry if you still think that I was trying to be difficult. From the looks of it, most people would say "I've seen worse". It really still is not easy having to cope with being busy every minute. My hands are constantly kept busy because it sometimes feel as though there are tons of ants crawling all over me. That's why I didn't want to accept anything I couldn't be 100% sure that I wouldn't need to spend more money on in vain. Honestly, I don't think anyone can really understand how this feels, to see the skin break at a mere scratch, to get frustrated by the itch and get bruises all over the legs. But on the other hand, it's also no big deal, as lots of people have it worse than me, and they don't complain.

I am sad too, having missed this opportunity. Looking forward to your photos of mountains and other interesting stuff!!