To all my darlings and everyone who has wished me Happy Birthday, thanks for your well wishes :)

Having a very bad month. Nothing seems to go right, and even when things go nice and well, the tear glands are just as productive as when things don't go as they should. I hope this all end soon.

schlecht gelaunt und traurig und allein

Rain Rain Rain

This rainy spell draws nostalgic feelings of my last summer in Germany, where I had to wear a thin jacket almost everyday at the beginning of the season. Presently in summer-all-year-round-Singapore, I also have to wear a jacket everyday because of strong winds accompanying the rain.

I feel SOooo cheated. In the past, I usually bought music books and related stuff at Cristofori because I had a 20% staff discount until last March. However, I terminated my contract with them and from then onwards, had to get Anlin to help me buy them because she was still suffering under the bureacractic administration and enjoyed the 20% discount.


But I recently got to know about Sweet Classics at Shaw Centre when I needed to get the theory 2007 past year papers because Music Essentials and Cristofori both would not stock those papers before this year's exams; which is when I realised that I've been paying exorbitant prices for music stuff at Cristofori! For the most recent past year paper (2007), it only cost $7 at Shaw Centre. But at Cristofori, a 2006 paper cost $11.20. DAYLIGHT ROBBERY!! This also means that after the 20% staff discount, I'm still paying around $2 more than I should. Ok, I sound like I'm overreacting. But having worked in Cristofori for awhile, anyone would know that it's not exactly the best of companies to work in.


I'm never getting anything else from Cristofori again. Period.

Der Test war echt schrecklich! Ich habe 20% nicht geschrieben, und habe keine Idee, was ich schreiben kann. Macht nichts! Das ist schon vorbei! Shu wird den naechste Test sehr gut schreiben!

NM1101E- Communications and New Media

The bane of my life! *At least for this moment* I was encouraged by a friend to take this exposure module because it was 'interesting' and the tests and exams were rather easy, consisting of thin (but extremely boring) readings and MCQs for midterm test.


Unfortunately, the lecturers decided to change the test format a 'little' bit this semester, and included short-answers AND essay questions. Unfortunately, I can't help but fall asleep each time I start reading the readings too. This falling asleep has got nothing to do with being tired. The readings are simply TOO uninteresting.


Oh no, tomorrow is the midterm test and I still cannot concentrate on this SO VERY unappealing module.


On another note, this has got to be my worst semester in NUS. In 2 out of 5 modules, I have lousy lecturers, which in addition to yawning my head off for 2 hours, I can learn absolutely NOTHING albeit desperately trying to pay attention during the class. In 1 of these 2, besides the course syllabus, we are also expected to pick up basic linear algebra on our own if we have not learnt it beforehand. (New lecturer for this module, who completely changed the syllabus other lecturers have followed.) Yup and not to forget, NM1101E, the boring-est module I've ever taken. I don't even know what's the point of learning the things taught in class since I cannot relate to most of the topics.


Which means, that I'm in deep trouble. And this probably explains my worrying nightmare.

Worrying nightmare

I think I should be very stressed. I had a nightmare last night, not a scary nightmare, but a worrying nightmare. (I've only had 3 nightmares in my entire life so far and they all visited me in my sleep on the same night when I saw 6 years old.) I dreamt that I failed one module during my last semester in NUS. It felt so vivid that I was even planning to go for special semester and try to pass that module so that I can go to USA in peace. URGH!


P.S.: I must stop myself from thinking too much, especially when there is nothing wrong. This is a mental torture and cheerfulness-depriving.